As I quickly approach my 35th year of existence, I am reaching a point in my life where I must make a drastic change, a change of huge significance, otherwise I will go completely crazy. I am therefore strongly considering that this year may or may not be my last year in Seattle. I am mentally, emotionally, socially and creatively frustrated at this moment in my life. I hate this feeling. I had huge hopes for this new year, but after these first 10 days, I am now not so sure. I’ve always had a problem with leaving circumstances when things get tough, rather than work productively to make the best of every situation I am in. It’s hard to get past these feelings. I am not even sure where I would go after this. I have so many ideas swimming in my head right now it is ridiculous. I am sure that I am prematurely jumping to conclusions but I also feel that something significant has to change in my life in order for me to become more fulfilled and happy. At this point, I’m not really sure that I can achieve this in Seattle at this present time, which is a shame really. I like Seattle as a city but find it socially stiff and difficult to fit in.

Where do I go from here? At this point, I don’t know. I really don’t know, but in the meantime, I try my hardest to keep my head up despite the madness. Time will tell, I guess.